I need to clear all the overwhelming thoughts in my head. Every second that passes by is a cruel reminder of how time is not on my side. If only the clock ceases to tick so it will stop stealing my time. If only I can savor the remaining time I have without having to worry about all the unanswered questions at the back of my head.
Advices from girlfriends I seek, but advices would not provide the answer. As I cocooned in the silent cell of mine, a voice tells me that I shall believe in my intuition. but my penchant for pessimism visits too frequently especially when things seem to be looking up. Perhaps I am just too afraid of the otherwise.
This fragile beating heart of mine is slowly losing its steady rhythm. I am the only one to be blamed for this, for I lack all the attributes I need in this situation. Soon, fatigue will take away all my energy to stay in the guessing game.
Unspoken signs, I hope I have not read you wrongly.
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Got tagged.
8 things I'm passionate about: 1. My university involvement 2. Continue quest for inspirations 3. The great sense of achievement 4. Coffee (Starbucks!) 5. MNG, Guess, Forever 21 (will soon upgrade to Chanel, Gucci, and Prada when I can afford it) 6. Desserts (will pick a nice place with rich steaming coffee and good desserts over anything anytime) 7. Shoes 8. Handbags
8 things I say too often: 1. Fuck (yeah, I'm vulgar like that =p) 2. What the hell 3. Walao 4. Lol 5. Shit 6. I'm fat 7. I'm slacking 8. Crap
8 books I've read recently: 1. The Curious Incident of a Dog in the Night-time by Mark Haddon 2. The World is Flat by Thomas L. Friedman 3. Runaway Juror by John Grisham 4. The Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella 5. House of God by Samuel Shem 6. The Tipping Point: How Little Things Can Make A Big Difference by Malcolm Gladwell 7. Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom 8. Freakonomics: A Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of Everything
8 songs I could listen to over and over again: 1. Learn You Inside Out by Lifehouse 2. Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis 4. Breathing by Lifehouse 5. Sleeping to Dream by Jason Mraz 6. Continuum by John Mayer* 7. Kiss Goodbye by LeeHom 8. Forever Love by LeeHom
8 things I learnt for the past year: 1. CAP does not reflect your self-worth 2. I don't need to care about those who do not care about me 3. I need to have more balls 4. Stay positive 5. Do not take love ones for granted 6. Do not judge people 7. Fight for what I want 8. Be less selfish and see things in a bigger perspective
People go through mishaps and hardships in their lives, and all these unpleasant experiences result in them putting up a facade to protect themselves. The battle of mind games and manipulations, do we do all these to guarantee the upper hand or we, too vulnerable of a human being, are just too afraid to show who we really are?
Little gestures flutter my heart, the sweet smell submerges my senses, and simple words put a smile on my face. The fancy lingers but question is, how well prepared am I for this dangerous game?
I've been hurt before, yet I am willing to trust. At times I ponder, if I could be less forgiving and less trusting, will this save me from the pain that I may go through for believing in the wrong people?
See my feet on the ground But it feels like the worlds gravity drowned When I'm with you I'm high
Instead of hiding my face My minds in your eyes Can your love embrace Me as I am
In the silence you stare at the world Your eyes are screaming to be heard I want to learn you inside out
Time isn't on our side All we have now For the rest of our lives Let's stay up all night
In the silence you stare at the world Your eyes are screaming to be heard I want to learn you inside out
All that changes is time Can't keep you inside of me You're out of my mind I wear you on my sleeve In the silence you stare at the world your eyes are screaming to be heard I want to learn you inside out
I see all that you want to be Look into your soul Looking right back at me I want to learn you inside out
What happened when the unthinkable become thinkable? What happened when you're forced to react under certain circumstances? What happened when you have to take a leap of faith?
I don't know about you, but for me, I need courage.
We concluded the NLB series on a high note last week.
Kudos to the NLB team, high 5 everyone! We've grown so much as an individual and gain so much strength as a team, from struggling to accommodate each other's working style to breaking the ice and start appreciating the whole process. whatever it is, this NLB series has been a valuable experience for me, for I understand myself and the people around me better. Look forward to working with you guys again.
Afterparty at Wala-Wala
Can finally start mugging! maybe not... Gotta stop visiting this place and consuming all the unnecessary extra calories before I transform into an elephant, a broke one. Also, need to stop making a fool out of myself in public and tarnishing my own image by fulfilling stupid dares. T.T
Not disclosing anything because quoting Vik, "What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas." =p
2 more weeks to exam! I shall redeem myself this time around.
PS: Happy 21st Birthday, Mini! Our beloved zai, geng, capable NES president and S@S vice lead. =)
Leads a paradoxical life. afraid of her weight and weigh herself 3 times a day. Yet, loves anything sweet ranging from cheese cakes to Baskin Robbin ice-cream. Knows abit of everything hence, geek of all trades but master of none.
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John Mayer - Heavier Things
Jason Mraz - Mr. A to Z
James Blunt - All The Lost Souls
